The first day of my life
This is going to be the first day of my life – I said to myself laughing at how lame that sounded. After about 6 months of inner struggle about doing something with my business, I came to the point that I just had to do it.
These 6 months were filled with work, and other time-consuming stuff (like moving from one place to another) which were perfect excuses to “deal with it later”.
I was avoiding the idea of “putting myself out there” because I didn’t need to. I didn’t feel the external pressure to do something which was bad. I still don’t feel it but now I chose to do something differently.
For the last few years, I felt complacent because I was doing “good”. That led me to “being busy” mode instead of the state where I do work to achieve long-term goals I’ve always wanted to achieve.
These goals were about building a remote design business.
Real business, not the “freelancing and being subcontractors for others” business which I run for about 7 years. I wrote about my goals in other post but the biggest thing I knew I had to do improve was my English.
In order to build a business, you need clients. Better and bigger ones than I currently have. In order to find them, I knew I had to start looking where I’ve never looked before. Abroad. Where people talk in English.
I have some irrational fear of speaking English. I’m fully aware that it’s irrational because I have no apparent reason to think otherwise.
I Scored 7.5 on the IELTS test which is “good enough” to communicate. I and my girlfriend were abroad many times and I could communicate “good enough”.
But it’s not as good as in my native language, so I’m dissatisfied and don’t write and speak English just to avoid the sensation of “sucking at this”. That, of course, isn’t doing anything good for me.
So I decided to break the pattern.
Breaking the pattern
That’s why I decided to record vlogs and write blog posts. Daily journal about my journey of building a remote design business. I always wanted to document things that I was doing for a few reasons:
- reflecting on my actions and helping others to see what needs to be done to achieve goals
- “putting myself out there”
- improving my English speaking
But before I do that I have to prepare A LITTLE BIT.
I’m emphasizing this because I have a tendency to overprepare myself for the things that might happen instead of just doing stuff. A typical perfectionist routine in play 😉
That’s why I believe the daily journals, where you CAN’T achieve perfection, are going to be some kind of remedy to that.
Perfectionism at work differs
Funny thing is, there is no “perfectionism” when it comes to working for others. I can set boundaries and notice where further work won’t yield any fruits. Diminishing returns in the simplest form.
But when it comes to doing the work for myself it’s different. I have multiple theories about why this is the case which I believe I’m going to describe in the future posts, because why not 😉
Anyway, coming back to the daily journal. I want to record a video and write a blog post.
For now, I will focus on recording videos because it’s harder to do.
I have very little experience with the camera. I recorded some videos when we were traveling, but nobody ever watched that, even ourselves. So I figured to do the video “the right way” I had to:
- set up a camera,
- test which one is better (my phone xiaomi mi5 or my dslr nikon d7000)
- try to record something
- pick up editing tool
- learn how to edit the videos
And that’s what I did.
First steps at daily vlogging
Nikon d7000 was ultimately better than a phone camera. So far so good.
I recorded myself talking about myself and I watched. Oh man, that was boring. I was quite uptight and not like me at all.
I knew it would be a bumpy road but I thought my starting point was somewhere higher than the “ground 0”. It wasn’t.
I picked up Final Cut Pro just because everybody was talking about it.
I got familiar with the basics and started to edit the video.
I asked my friend who does SOME motion design about some kind of presets that I can use to create an intro for the channel. He sent me a few files and I started to manipulate titles and animations to create some cool intro.
It was fun to figure out new software. Most of the tools that I use in my work have similar interfaces and you just can’t get “brand new” experience with them.
After a few hours of playing with the software, I create the first version of the intro. I was prepared for recording my very first episode. That is going to happen tomorrow.
Plan the next week
I had one more thing to do that day – plan the next week.
I was doing that for a few months about a year ago but I stopped with no apparent reason. It helped me keeping motivation and having a purpose on a daily basis.
So I was happy to reintroduce these good habits into my life once again.
After about 30 minutes of planning I had a rough sketch of the things I want to complete this week:
- Create 7 vlogs
- First, 2 are going to be an introduction to the channel, quick info about me and my goals,
- next ones are going to be recordings of the things I’m doing throughout the day to grow my business
- Document daily tasks and thoughts and use it as blog posts
- Set-up a blog where I can publish the daily journal
- Create the social media strategy
- Be comfortable with using basic functions of final cut (simple edit such as cutting, syncing audio, creating clips)
- Implement changes within Coders Lab Digital UX Course which I’m working on for about 6 months
Sounded doable but hard. Especially when I didn’t do any vlogs before.
Plan for #001
I picked up two tasks for the next day:
- Plan, record, edit and publish video #001
- Continue to work on Digital UX Course for my client
Went to sleep with a feeling of starting doing something great. See you tomorrow.