Woke up with the plan and energy to implement it.
I was laying in bed thinking about how lucky I am. Having a purpose that is aligned with my inner me, or at least with my current version of myself.
Feeling gratitude that this is possible. That I actually can dare to do something greater than yourself.
Yin and Yang
Funny thing is I while I KNOW how lucky I am, I’m also convinced I deserved all of it. I could even call this some kind of entitlement. Fucking liar you might say. I beg to differ.
I believe combining these two seemingly contradicting feelings is the real fuel for action and growth. It’s like Yin and Yang. Only the whole has the full power and capacity. This is the place where the real power comes from. It’s like taking the bests from the two opposite worlds to create a new one. Even better one.
Unfortunately, I didn’t invent this analogy. Gary Vaynerchuk was first. Or probably he wasn’t, because there is nothing new under the sun. Anyway, he was talking about “pulling from opposite directions”. Go check it out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=liO5saLKxSM .
It’s funny because I’ve heard thousand other great thoughts from either Gary or any other “big guys” but it didn’t mean shit until you translate the thought based on your experience.
Not more than 2 minutes after, reality broke into this blissful state. I got to pee. I got to record my first vlog ever. I have to work for my client and do other hundred things. I felt familiar heaviness in my chest – discomfort.
So yeah. Second day. Foolishly full of energy, hopes and dreams. Let’s hope that it will not going to be just flash in the pan at its finest.
Getting back to earth.
Planning the first vlog #001
Right after doing “morning stuff” I opened my favorite tool of all – “RealTimeBoard” – and sketched the things I wanted to tell. I was writing my story. I’m not familiar with storytelling that much but everyone is a storyteller without even knowing it. In order to avoid striving for perfection, I decided to just do it the way I believe is the best way.
I wrote down 2 things
Things I want to say in order to create an introduction.
my WHY, HOW and WHAT
Reality sinks in once again
My initial plan was to tell what the vlog is going to be about and tell a little about myself. But… I didn’t even have to record it to determine it’s going to be too long!
So I decided to move my WHY, HOW and WHAT to the next video and just record this introduction.
I thought it’s going to be 2 hour job TOPS. Well…
Pain of recording
I pressed record on my camera and my phone (where I record audio) and started talking. After about 20 takes of just basically saying “Hi, this is going to be about this and that” I started to get a little bit annoyed and frustrated. Well, “beginnings are the hardest” – I thought.
I constantly stopped recording to have a little break and get composure. During the breaks I watched recorded video on my camera and boy, oh boy.
I was boring, uptight and not like myself at all. I ended up taking lots of retakes to just make it just a little bit less horrible than it is.
Fear, Uncertainty, Doubt
All of this took my about 3x more than I thought. I spend 45 minutes on planning and about 2.5 hours on the recording. And I knew it’s not done yet – I had to edit it.
I jumped to it right after i’ve done talking to the camera. Turned out that stopping the recordings wasn’t the smartest idea because right now I have lots of files and I have to rewatch myself and figure out what’s good enough for publishing. Torture.
Anyway, syncing audio and video was tedious. I had a hard time founding and pairing video and audio clips.
The edit took my about 2 hours. For the love of God. I spend about 5 hours on creating 2 minute video. That’s just sad.
Video process v1
Fortunately I noticed lots of mistakes I’ve made and I created a process of making the videos. Creating this kind of things is my thing. I love to improve and speed things up by creating “rules” and standards.
Putting myself out there
I uploaded a video and pressed publish. Pushing the button was hard. Putting my “not the best version of myself” out there wasn’t the greatest feeling in the world but I needed it. Fighting with the need of endless improvements before “it’s good enough” is important to me. Striving for perfection is the sin of many.
Finally over, time to work
After this hard work I wanted to do something relaxing. So I jumped right into work I need to do for my client. Yeah, you’ve heard me right. I relax by doing specific kind of tasks. My current task was devising the agenda of one of the course days for Digital UX Course. Devising and planning – that’s my thing. Executing the plan (Which I’m going to do next days) is not that fun. But it’s still good.
End of the day
It was late when I finished working. There was only one thing to do that day. Plan the agenda for the next day.
Fortunately, that took me about 2 minutes because most of my day was already planned.
Plan for #002
Plan content for video #002
Continue to work on Digital UX Course for my client
Go to the theme park and have fun